…But that doesn’t have to be all there is!
My name is Marchanna ‘Mars’ Bentley! Call me what you want but you can’t call me a liar. But hell, I can’t control ya! Just be sure to attach Japanese-bilingual journalist, philosopher, and artist at the end of it!*゚ー゚)ゞ⌒☆
Looking at my history and current status of homeless and nearly penniless, you’d never believe I traveled the world and wrote books and won awards.
If I had grown up to become an alcoholic, prostitute addicted to meth, or any of the other awful things that happen to crazy Black chicks like me who would fault me? I have stories and secrets scattered among the cosmos that can paint a pretty picture of why I’d have the right to escape old monsters in my closet with the use of mind-alternating substances.
But no, I’m already as kooky as a box of cats and live in harmony with mental illness and unpleasant memories; I have no desire to activate any residual demons with anything other than a nice glass of expensive wine and mind-numbing trash tv.
I don’t need anything but the happiness I foster within myself. I am now high on life! ੈ♡‧₊˚Luckily and dreamily ੈ♡‧₊˚ so thanks to uhhhh [looks at smudged handwrtitng] getting saved by the ੈ♡‧₊˚Holy Bibleੈ♡‧₊˚—PRAISE GOD! OH GOD, LET ME PRAISE YOU HARDER. Archangel Michael is strong enough to lend me his blue flaming sword of divinity to smite the demons away now, fuck drugzzzz!!!! ʕʘ̅┏ل͜┓ʘ̅ʔ
….Or something. Forgive me for my God-given right for melodrama (Aries Sun, Gemini Sun dad and all!) but 99% of the people in my life hammered religious trauma into me and made it a point of the contingency that my lack of faith was the reason I was traumatized. Not uh…well, just look at my writing or ask me out on a date (I’m ovo-vegetarian who loooooves seafood and prefers to be wooed over fine dining experiences and poetry exchanges)!
However as I navigate my Dark Night of the Soul I have become extremely open-minded and eager to learn about the various religions and rituals for self-love and connection with my INNER GODS AND GODDESSES out there.
The cosmic beauty of All has allowed me to respectfully incorporate these life lessons alongside demons of mental illness and shared human suffering into my illustrations, literature, and philosophy. In turn, I have blossomed into a Dark Black Bimbo Witch Bitch Goddess who is humble enough to understand I still do not have all the answers. I am ascended enough to enjoy the bible and other books of faith as the allegorical tools they are meant to be.
With hell underneath me, I only talk to the angels above and am now in tune with their guidance. And to be frank, I love myself and am too hot to do a lot of thinking.
If it doesn’t flow, let that shit go.
Also! Hey! I have a job lined up back in Japan and am seeking a steady stream of income in order to book my flight and covid a test. As such I am humbly seeking donations for my plight. This is a good chance to help a diaadvant4aged Black woman and a human being. If you can’t help financially, no worries! Please pass along my CashApp if you would $wasabirolljp to any super-rich Tony Stark out there.
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